How to deal with traumatic events in the past and anger?

Tiger, The best thing I can think of is to TALK and express yourself. Pick one person (your psychiatrist perhaps, since they will be able to help be objective as well as listen) and tell that person the emotions you feel, you don't have to say why necessarily. You can write a letter to the person who wronged you addressing everything. You can paint a picture with no images or words...So many ways you can just get them out of you and into the open. That will help you most from day to day. Clearing your head. Personally, when I went through abuse at the hand of my father I bottled my emotions and thoughts up. When I came of age to move out and be on my own my life spiraled downhill because my normal functioning/decision making skills were tainted. It felt as though my anger(which I had a right to feel, as you do...) suffocated/consumed me. When I first started going to see a conselor I had a hard time talking or remembering exactly what I wanted to talk about when I had an appointment. So, try to write things down whether random thoughts, memories, ETC. Also, don't worry about dating or being around men for the time being. I know I wouldn't even talk to men or let them even shake my hand when I first started recovering from everything. You will come into your own and as far as feelings for women it is normal for you to see a female more 'supportive' and appealing ually. You're just identifying with what comes natural to you. You have been through a lot and just need some time and objective conversation and ways to deal with the past. I hope you'll really consider taking all the time you need, you can do this! :)